I know that i've done somethings wrong becouse that i am a fool. I trusted my self when I were weak and completle out my head. I told my self I could do it but I end up hurting the one I love. You made me laugh and smile when everything looked bad. What will I do if I never to see you again it will leave a burn mark on my heart wich never will disepear. I told you I was sorry but I guess it's not up to you. or any reason I will try to find myway throug this and I hope it will end for the better. I can't hide the truth so thats why im writing this to tell you how deeply sorry I am for what I put you up to. When I close my eyes I se a perfectly clear image of you. It scares me that I feel the way, Everytime you tuch me you make my stomach feel weird and I start behave strange. If this is love how do you feel? Why can't I accept that you wishes no more than to be my friend. You did hurt me ones but nothing will hurt me more that to know that I never will see you again. We are still friends but I wan't so much more than that. If you just knew that I wish to be that guy that makes you laugh. I want to feel again how it feel to get my love for you to be responded. If I had to I give everything up just so I can lay down in the same bed ass you, I tell you every day that I love you more than anything in the world. You are really the one that my heart is fixed for. I could wait for you if I had to. If I would be standing in your doorway right know would you let me in? I don't know anymore im starting to get really comfused. I can't stop thinking of you in my dreams i see you, im allmost failing at school and that becouse I don't want to stop beleve that some day I meet you again and that I will get my chans of making you the most happie human alive. I want to make you feel ass good ass I feel when I get the chans to hold you in my arms.
Was it me or you?
Tell me one thing the weekend I beleve that I might have gon to far and thats why im forst to regrette. But I dont feel regrette for what I've done but I wish it were more simple to accept my fault. If I ask you today "was it me or you"? I guess I wont get an answere right away. Please if you can find it in your heart to forgive me tell me that next time we talk. I've ask my self if there is any way this wont remind me of what happed in december but it will.
My biggest misstake.
My biggest misstake, it must have been that I hurt your feelings the first night you were here. I never wich to hurt you but I did'nt know what I were doing. There is so much that I wishes to say to you but the butterflyes in my stomach is flapping around ass fast ass I hear you voice. I cant controll my self I speak strange and makes no sense.
What if!
What if thats something I ask my self everyday, what if that would have happend. I look through my memories every day and im serching for a answere that I can't find in my mind. I serch for what if, i don't know what if. how would I have ended up if it never were over I don't know. I know one thing fore sure and that is that becouse it is over I find my self in a were odd situation were I can't forget what she made me to be. Im not the same today why? I tell you I've change, I became something new some little more ruff on the surface but the same on the inside. I tryed to hide my feelings with the new me. You can't hide who you are for the person you love more than an bloddy colored sunset on a hot juni night at the beach. I dont feel safe in the new me and I wish to return to be who I were becouse I guess thats what she wanted me to be when she fell in love whit me the first time.
